Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy T-day.

By 9:30pm I was completely food drunk and bored, so I took to the internet in search of something fun. So did I find anything of interest you ask?
Nope, but I did actually find the End of The Internet. Sad to say, it was nothing exciting at all.
I guess I can at least say that I've been there though.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

It seems that life always throws you a curve ball and it's up to us to deal with it. And...
depending how we take on that challenge shows a lot about our character, resolve, and our general outlook on life.

I've been one to normally be a "realist" and not in the classic sense of the word, but rather that I view things usually in a more balanced worldly view, one that IMO doesn't lean prematurely as pessimistic or optimistic, but usually a little more middle ground w/a hoping for the best and prepared for the worst.

So now that I've once again gone deeper into my incite than you asked for, out with my issue(s). For the past few months my issues have been more medical than anything else. Not too serious, but serious as in migraines seem to be creeping into my life more and more and they are so bad at times that life comes to a screeching halt sometimes.

Some even effecting my vision to the point that I can see dark spots which makes it not only hard to concentrate, but even do work. They've been bad enough that riding has been hard to do also. Mountain biking really takes so much more focus than you think, and riding with a migraine is flirting just with disaster. I've tried and each time I almost wrecked or did, coming away with nothing more than a than a bruised ego.

Trying to look at this as the glass is half full, I've simply tried to modify my need to ride to a need to exercise.
So I've tried to stay off the bike and at least walk, or do indoor exercises like push-up, stretching/power moves (IE not quite Yoga) and it was working out pretty well. I was still able to maintain my weight loss and I was increasing strength and even gaining some muscle back in my arms, shoulder, legs, chest, etc.

So where am I going with this? Two weeks ago I went out on a ride since it had been 2 weeks and I really needed one. The new bike that was a month old had only 3 rides on it. So I hit the trail knowing that I had a "slight" headache, but not too much more.

Shortly after taking to the trail the headache became worst. Ignoring my 1st thought of just head home, I opted for, "Hey, you're out, keep going." "Maybe the fresh air will help if I just stick it out."

About 2 miles in I crashed, and boy did I crash hard. I put my front tire into a whole along side a step and I before I could even think about what was happening I was picking myself up off the ground. With the tire stuck I had superman'd over the bars and had tried to catch myself on the fence in front of me. Well that didn't quite work too well. After picking myself up and collecting my thoughts, I had to tweak the stem and bars as they had twisted a little.

I decided to keep going, just ride it off.

Fast forward to today. While all the scrapes and bruises have gone away, I'm still unable to resume exercises like pushup, pullups, etc. My right shoulder is in pain and it's the type of pain that can't be massaged out as you can't touch the place of the pain itself. It feels deep in the shoulder, like somewhere near the joint itself, it's an ache of sorts until I try to stress it, than it's simply a sharp pain.

So now my indoor exercising has become close to a halt, and this weather continues to pile on the migraines a few times a week. I finally was able to get out for a ride yesterday and the shoulder put a stop to that w/in about 5mls.

This is point in which my frustration is piling up. Not exercising for a few days has me feeling tight in the muscles and actually very cloudy in my thinking. While some people need sleep for clear thoughts, I need exercise. But this lack of being about to do much of it for the last 3 weeks is just killing me.

It just seems that I'm either in pain from migraines &/or my shoulder day in and day out for the past 20 days and I'm going crazy, Today was the worst as my migraine had me in so much pain I literally slept all day long. I went out for about 20 minutes to get some fresh air, but other than that I slept until 6pm and now at 9:30 I'm ready for more sleep.

Something has got to give. My should has got to heal & the weather has got to stop with the cold followed by warming rains, it's that pattern of weather that wreaks havoc on my head and for about 2 days out the pressure builds until the wham!

And to top it all off, the need for using heat lately has the air drying out beyond belief in which I'm having some sinus issues now too.

Ugh!