Friday, June 20, 2008

It was only a few weeks ago that we as a family all gathered to celebrate my Oma's 88th birthday. While her age has been getting the best of her mind, on that day she was all together and full of joy and smiles. But only 12hrs later she suffered from a fall in the bathroom that left her with a fractured hip, eye socket, and finger. After a weeks stay in the hospital, she was back in the home but now with a 24hr a day nurse.

The pain was incredible for her and the pain alternate pain meds made an already exhausted mind more weary.
Then yesterday I received the call that she has taken a turn for the worst. Her breathing became very shallow and her blood pressure was almost non-existent.

It was only a matter of hours or days, so I made my business to get up to Fred. today. Upon arriving just about 9:20, I found my way to her room. As I approached the door opened and out hurried my aunt to the nurses station. My heart immediately sank, I just knew. Just as I approached the door my aunt turned and saw me and she gave me the nod. It seems that only 30 seconds earlier my grandmother had taken her last breath. We walked back in; followed by the nurse who had to check for a pulse.

There she laid just a fragile shell of who she was even only 2 weeks ago. A sense peace was in the room as she passed before being able to see just one my sunrise. At least she passed quietly and with family at her side.

Rest in peace Oma, I will miss your sassy wit and smile, but now you can join Opa, Werner, & Jason in a better place free of suffering from physical and mental aliments.

Monday, June 16, 2008

It's one thing to think your fat, it's another to even admit it on the conscious level, but it's completely degrading to see yourself as "that" person.

Yes, it happened to me this weekend. Lisa was snapping some photos of me just innocently sitting in a chair after a ride. Low and behold when the photos were imported, there it was in all it's splendor and glory.

Ugh! It was my spare tire!
This has got to go, hopefully this will be the motivation I need to loose some weight.

Here's the photo with the culprit circled in red, not that it needs it.
So how did you feel in a like situation?